Alienating the Masses With Emotional Honesty
July 31st, 2008People are stupid and afraid. I'm in love with someone... Someone seemingly impossible to be with, and yet I try anyway. It's a tough world. Nothing great ever came easy, so I'm working hard for what I want, for what I need, for what I found to be good and right. I dont delude myself into thinking it could be perfect, but there are moments of perfection, and these persist under far from perfect circumstances. So I push on, in hopes of improving circumstances, logically and illogically, and foremostly, honestly.
Sometimes I think people see it as a disease, honesty. They look at me dumbfounded, with a hint of disgust in their upcurled lip. Some just become sad. Tell me that they wish I hadn't told them that. Some act aloof, then try to convince me to follow another direction for my own good. I have found that only a few of those who have experienced a similar situation are supportive, and even then, I'm rarely supported.
Princess Beris Kandauroff wrote in 'The Art of Living', "Don't give advice unless specifically asked for." Bravo, you old pretentious beast. I quite agree. I cant count the number of times someone wants to guide me or adjust my path or critique my decision. Now, to be honest, I've always claimed I keep friends for just that purpose, to keep me in check. And its still true, but I'm tired of getting advice on things that people have had no experience with or know absolutely nothing about.
I'm sorry if I smashed any dreams. I'm sorry if I have a little less time. I do care. I care deeply for the people around me, and I won't abandon any of you. I know you're afraid, some for yourselves and some for me, and some of you are just disappointed. I know its hard to understand. It would be hard for me to understand if my friend told me the same thing. I know my situation is taboo. I'm a star-crossed lover. I dont know exactly what will happen, but I'm keeping the faith and walking the path, and this is important to me. I will lose friends for this, but I have already accepted that. So on this one, please, just support me, ok?
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